Remembering Him

Morning world :-)

Hope you're all good and giddy!

I'm up early this morning, even after going to bed quite late. I just couldn't switch off last night, thinking, pondering with some what iffing chucked in. Most of my thoughts were to do with my dad and all that he's done for me, for all of us in my family. I was thinking how unfortunate it was that my dad was all alone at night in his hospital room, he's been there since last Sunday, my birthday. My family stay with him the whole day, but of course have to retire home as overnight stay is not allowed, thankGod that at least they can provide him with company. He is so fragile now, so weak with an unpredictable health. I know for certain that if my dad had been well and good and I was the one in hospital, he would be the first one to be there by my side. I know this because he did just that when I was five years old and fractured my arm and had to stay in overnight. Dad never left my side the whole night and day. And would you believe luck ehy, here I am, three hours away from him, in some strange town which is now apparently my 'home', so far away from him and caught up in my own life: the barrier stopping me from visiting him. I wish I could just drop everything and go to him, but I know that this would anger him more than anything as he wants me to complete my studies, which inshaAllah finishes at the end of this month. I dunno. May be I will just drop everything and go up to be with him, let's see how this pans out. Through Allah's grace, I found some solace after reading fajr and a few pages of the Holy Qur'an earlier this morning, all while praying in the back of my mind for my dad's recovery, inshaAllah. Allah certainly is the best of planners.

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Salaam world

How are we all today?

This is just a quick post to just say that I am still here (have been lurking around a lot recently, hehee), alive and kicking and have got rid of the dreadful flu! So yeah, I was flicking through some of my older posts when this particular post caught my eye, or rather the following image did:

It probably shouldn't have, but the image put an awkward SMILE on my face! Esp the bit that says: Do you think you could afford paying for everyone?

Hoooawh!! I mean, I know we all google up images and post them on our blogs, right? But seriously, am I thief? I feel like I've robbed someone of an income or something!?! Heeeheee :-D

And there I was thinking that the age old saying "sharing is caring" was true!

Why blog?

I've been in the blogosphere for two months almost and have been around it for much longer. I love coming across various random facts/opinions/stories/hint and tips, that interest me and have found that although the net in general is rich with all these things, blogs for some reason intrigue me even more. I like how I can almost step into someones world without crossing the threshold into their homes. Sort of like a fly on a wall, we watch as writer's write away. We get to read things that interest them and if it interests us, we read with them. If it doesn't we click away without the need for an apology for being rude, as would be standard in any face to face conversation. With blogs we have a choice of what we want to listen to: yes, listen. Sometimes we listen with our imaginary ears, at other times, with our hearts and minds.

Why not talk these things with the people in your actual life, why bother blogging at all? Why do we spend time writing a post, checking out other's and interacting with them? Is it the anonymity we love? The global connection? The sharing with like minded people? I think for me, it's a bit of all these things, plus other thing which I've failed to articulate. See, for me, writing here on my blog, keeps my mind focused, even in times of complete cloudiness, as it's an outlet for me to communicate my thoughts/feelings/ideas at a time sometimes inconvenient for the people in my life, for whatever the reason may be. Aaaand, not to mention, coming across some really great blogs belonging to sisters all over the world has a certain element of fabulosity about it ;)

How about you? What made you blog in the first place? Can you imagine a blog free world for you? Drop us a line :-)

Punch in the guts!

I feel like this never ending, never successful job hunting is coming to an end. Not an end that I'm pleased with, but an end for the time being, I think.

I've been madly looking for a suitable job, even decided to venture out of my comfort zone - my current home, and to pack, set and go: on the condition that I would have a suitable job. Last week was a quite a sorry state of affairs. After a long day of endless interview assessments in a city far far far away from home and hubby, I didn't recieve the bad news call very well. Having spent hours and days worrying/planning/loosing sleep over the outcome of the day, the day didn't fare well, and was a let down. Luckily, I recieved the call when my train approached Cheltenham from Leicester and found my darling husband waiting for me at my platform; I say luckily because had he not been there, I have no idea of how I would have dealt with the bad news.

On meeting him, he assured me that it wasn't the end of the world, although it seemed difficult to believe at that time. Still, seeing him after over a whole week and spending the night prior the interview on my tod in a skanky hotel room, I was filled with joy - he had my back.

Since this set back, I had got back in touch with a school that had offered me the same job, this time in a small all girls school. I had asked for some time to consider the offer and they agreed, since the person that I would be replacing had not yet handed in her resignation, although she had given an interview at some other job and had been given an informal 'yes'. When I got in touch with the Head with my CV in his inbox, he reminded me of the current situation with the other teacher still in limbo and assured me that he'd update me asap, he also said he was happy that I had applied. Well, that 'asap update' was today and it looks like the current teacher may still have her job as the one she went for, fell through. I've been asked by the Head to wait until next week for a decision as he will meet with the current teacher to discuss her future plans etc.

Another punch in the guts. Twice in two weeks. I was sorta pinning my hopes on getting this one for many reasons; mainly though because it would give me, a newbie in the town, to get to know the community and also because of it's locality, it would be ideal and very convenient for easy travellling. *sigh*

So what now? Where do I go from here? What do I do with myself this September?

Ponder, ponder, ponder.